escapist

I wish to create a melody
A hum that lightens my heart
A wave that settles my mind
And let me be in the present.

I am lost between my present and what I want
I spare too much time never getting to the point
I am becoming intolerant of myself and too tolerant of others
Never truly happy and never accepting my sadness
I am becoming an escapist, from self

I am holding back myself
I wish to tear my existence to shreds and move on!